I finally convinced myself on my way home after work to stop by the grocery
store, buy some chicken, and cook it myself, ith rice. I had no difficulty
doing it this time. (I guess I’m finally getting better.) Though, when I
prepared my plate, OW!, it’s like if someone would have stabbed me in
the back.
I just sat down and enjoyed my meal. The chicken was really good, but I
could have been better with the rice… (Why am I always cooking that
bad-taste brown rice anyway?)
After applying some pain-relief gel in my back, I went to bed and I thought
it will be all over tomorrow morning.
Ends up that I could barely sleep throughout the night. I woke up at 6, and
I didn’t dare to move because of the pain. Laid on my back, I just reached
the laptop with my hand, brought it on me, and sent a quick e-mail to my
manager with it, stating that I can’t work today.
I really hate not working because of “sickness”. I don’t like to say I’m
“sick” either, because I always have that mental picture in my head about a
person who’s coughing, has a fever, shivers, and thinks death is soon to
come. It’s not my case, but the fact that I can barely move impairs my work.
And because of that, well, I’m losing money.
With courage, I decided to stop complaining, grabbed my laptop, and went
downstairs. (Where I am now.) At the moment I’ve turned on the TV and
switched to a French news network, Japan jumped in my face again with images
of geisha with the words “Artists or sophisticated prostitutes? The secret
life of the Geisha. Tonight at 8.” I think it’s at 8. Oh well, I’ll just
record it with my trusty Linux video recorded, which has been encountering
strange video overflow problems recently.
I’m seriously worried that I’ll never have enough money to go in Japan.
However, I’ve been really severe toward myself recently about my expenses,
and I think it’s working.
Though, what I don’t like, is the attitude of the people coming with me in
Japan. They make quite more money than I do, so they really don’t think
about that much. Just Sunday, they want to have a meeting about our trip by
going at a restaurant. Of course, we can’t just order something cheap or eat
at home prior the meeting! That would be too cheap!
There’s the Japanese language meetup tomorrow. I recently have less and less
interest for the group. I’m a hypocrite — I’m the one who suggested to do
it twice per month instead of just once, but that was months ago, before I
was getting tired of it. Everything seems to go better there when I’m not
present anyways, so why should I bother.